绞刑架之我谋杀了我

【尾声·绞刑架？】

1

是贾老师救了我。

他隔着防盗门听到声音，及时打电话给我爸妈，将疯狂的、濒死的我送进了医院。

住院的时候，很多同学都来看我，宋好也来了。她一直坐在我病床前哭，这个可怜的女生到现在还那么自以为是，她以为是她把我逼到了自杀的地步，甚至还为此在全班同学面前做了检讨。

但是，贾老师和我父母都知道，那天、那阵子，在我身上发生了不可思议的事。

原来，梵歌就是贾老师，起初他并不知道游戏里的我就是自己的学生何沉沉，直到我请他写情书时莽撞地说出了自己的通信方式，他才恍然大悟。因为这样，他才知道我之所以消沉并不是因为早恋，他知道慕沉就是我，这个主意本来就是他出的。

那段时间，他经常在深夜看到我的游戏角色上线，可家访时，我父母又很坚决地否定了这种可能性，因此他当时就觉得很奇怪，怀疑这件事可能真的和传说中的绞刑架有关，怀疑是病毒擅自登录了我的游戏角色。

事发当天，贾老师发现我逃课，打我手机又一直占线，于是想到游戏里看看我是不是在线，果然就被他撞到了。

在我说出“想要摆脱自己”那句话之后就一言不发，贾老师立刻意识到我可能会出事，于是迅速赶来。当他和我爸妈打开门的时候，听到手机里的慕沉仍在歇斯底里地嘶吼：“很好！杀死你自己，就彻底摆脱我了！既然你已经对我绝望了，既然我也已经对你绝望了，既然你已经对你深恶痛绝，既然我也对我自己恨之入骨……”

甚至在我被送到医院后，慕沉仍喋喋不休地抱怨着、发泄着……

三个大人很快发现给我打电话的就是我自己的手机号码，他们无法理解这种不可思议的事，也不知道如何终止，干脆烧烂了手机。随后，又在贾老师的建议下，砸烂了我的电脑。

贾老师怀疑，我的手机和电脑都中了绞刑架病毒，但却不知道是怎么感染的。

2

深陷内疚的宋好为了赎罪，决定主动帮我抄笔记，并打算帮我在课本上工工整整地做好标注。为此，她拿走了我的书包，随后在书包里发现了一部已经没电的手机。

幸好，这部手机和她的手机是同一个牌子的，充电器和数据线也是通用的……

3

我躺在医院里，用新买的笔记本登录了游戏，很奇怪，梵歌竟然在线。

“喂！贾老师！下午没课吗？”我问。

还不待梵歌回答，贾老师突然从病房门口探出头，“何沉沉同学，恢复得怎么样了？下午没课，过来看看你！”

我望着电脑里的梵歌，又看看病房门口的贾老师，脸色顿时变得煞白……

4

是绞刑架干的吧？一定是！

但奇怪的是，我并不恨它，甚至觉得它根本没有错，错的是我们自己。

就像美丽的罂粟，好人用它来治病，坏人用它来制毒，而它本身是无辜的。

就像耿杰和陈思在游戏里对刷，这种行为令它觉得他们能通过死亡获得荣誉和自豪；就像四眼男三开玩游戏、自己杀自己，这令它觉得自杀能获得快乐；就像撞车死去的高中女生，她双开玩“身份卡牌”游戏，这才令它觉得自残能获得满足。我想，他们在死前，也一定曾在梦里和自己对话，也一定收到过自己给自己发来的短信，也一定接听过自己给自己打来的电话。

或许，耿杰是故意把手机丢在了课桌里，以此来摆脱源于它的困扰，但他并没有意识到，他的困扰就是他自己。

我是因为厌恶我自己，才确定放弃自己，与慕沉无关，与绞刑架无关。

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