一盒白沙烟

远远的，一个小小的黑点。

千万别是严浩，张静伊祈祷着，回头看到是龚盈盈期待的眼睛，也请上帝保佑菩萨保佑那两个睡着的男人不要醒来。

张静伊挥手，不停的挥手，是的，是渔民的船。奇迹出现了，船的方向转了，朝自己开过来，是拖拉机一样的柴油动力小木船，破破烂烂的。

开船的是个老头，鼻子红红的。

张静伊看了看里面的龚盈盈，顺手关了一下船的门。

老头停拢，关上马达，“什么事情？”

“到三连桥那边多少钱？”

老头伸出一个手指，“十块，不降价。”

张静伊摇摇头，“我去那里都是五块，我不去了，你走吧。”

老头不甘心，“上来吧，五块就是。”

张静伊压抑住心里的激动，“一百的你找得开还是找不开哦？”

老头使劲摇头，“大清早的哪来那么多零钱？”

张静伊推开门进去，还好他们都在睡，桌上放着一包崭新的雪白的五块的白沙烟。龚盈盈从缝隙里看到了那只小船，老头还在好奇的往里探视。

门打开了，张静伊道，“给你包白沙算了。”

老头点头，招手示意上船。

远处又传来马达声，严浩回来了，依稀看得见他穿的那件大衣。

张静伊转头从门缝看见了龚盈盈绝望的眼睛，黑而空洞，从希望到失望，她的声音是沙哑的，“请你不要丢下我。”

老头启动马达的瞬间，张静伊忽然嗅到自由的空气，眼泪落下来，有什么比自由更可贵的，哪怕是吹着冷风。

到了岸边，张静伊连滚带爬的穿过大街到了派出所报案，但很慢，记录了半天才去江边，位置又说不清楚。中午的时候很多船，但已经忘记到底是哪艘船。

到了严浩的租的房子，里面空荡荡的，房东说房子退了，今天刚好到期。

张静伊的嘴唇微微颤抖。

警察查了房东那里登记的严浩的身份证复印件，档案无法显示，是假的。

张静伊不敢再住在这个房子里，只要一开门，她就会看到那双无辜的眼睛，共富贵却不能共患难的眼睛。

那头俏丽的短发，那个曼妙的影子，还有那些笑声，时常回荡在耳边。

从此以后，张静伊爱上了抽烟，只抽白沙。

辍学后，张静伊开了一家精品屋，卖漫画书和便宜的古董。认识了现在的男朋友，他男朋友说觉得她抽烟的样子很伤感，脸上是不属于这个世界的表情。

尾声

我终于回到我亲爱的乱七八糟的宿舍。坐公车上又睡着了。

别人的故事，终究是别人的，别人的悲伤，与我何干，我关心的是我自己，有没有鱼尾纹，这个月加班费多少，大姨妈准时来了就好，宿舍下水道怎么又散发臭味了，我的另外一只袜子呢，算了今天不洗澡了，新书能卖多少钱，如果结婚以后还要不要上班，什么时候辞职，明天上什么班，什么时候去卡拉oK，宿舍又没纸了，钱包是不是破了个洞钱怎么都溜走了，食堂吃的是虾今天就不回去吃饭了否则很亏啊……

洗澡，头发擦干，坐电脑前看帖子聊mSN在群里打哈哈。

QQ上有人发给我一个链接。

靠，肯定是病毒，不管啦。

那人不停的发，说我一定要看。

md，我骂。一点那人资料，一片空白。

不小心点开了链接。

是解剖尸体的录像，女人的胸部很漂亮，胸膛里盛满了血液，女人大概是短发，我屏住呼吸。

我看见尸体的胸部有蝴蝶形状的胎记。

我三天都没有什么胃口，我不敢再接张静伊打开的电话，半夜从恶梦中惊醒，风吹着窗帘哗啦响，我仿佛看见张静伊在我耳边说，“糖果，告诉我，人人都是自私的，对吗，对吗，对吗？”

是，我们人人都是自私的。

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