自杀助手

而这时，男子突然说话了：“我看了今天早上的新闻，很有趣。”

当男子的声音传到我的耳朵里时，我的整张脸，不，我的整个心都凉了，我一辈子也不会忘记这个声音。

“那是你做的吧?给女孩换上衣服，再放到凯达格兰大道上……为什么你要这么做?”男子，不，该称他为石先生了。石先生转过头，看着我。

眼前这个人就是石先生的事实冲击着我，但我仍试图让自己看起来临危不乱：“你不会明白的。”

“是吗?”得到这个答案后。石先生把头转回去，继续开着车道，“你说要当面给我回复的，现在可以说了吗?要回来当助手吗?”

“不，我不会。”我直接地回答，直接到连我自己也感到惊讶。

石先生像是早料到我会这么回答，并没多说什么，而是转了个话题：

“刚刚你开门的时候手上拿着枪，是不是想杀我?”

“不，我只是在提防你会派人来杀我。”我照实回答。

“我就知道，”石先生啧了一下，“黑浩，让我猜猜看，在面对死意坚决的委托人时，你可以毫不犹豫地帮助他们死亡，但在面对犹豫不决的委托人时，你会开始考虑是否该让委托人继续活下去，是不是这样?”

“是的。”我咬着牙。

“我就知道，”石先生又说了这四个字，“你果然不适合当助手，你自认为己经抛弃一切情感，但你还是抛弃不了最基本的人性。”

石先生停顿了一下，接着说：“没有任何一个助手可以抛弃人性，每个人都只是在假装自已是冷血动物。但事实上，每个委托人的死亡都是他们的噩梦，黑浩，我说的对不对?”

石先生说的话字字切入我心，那些曾经成为噩梦的自杀者的脸又出现在我的脑中。他们每个人的脸庞都是那样清楚。我以为已经忘记他们，但事实上他们的脸仍是我心中最大的噩梦。

“每个助手都在躲避自己的噩梦，而你，黑浩，却面对你自己的噩梦，选择离开助手这个行业。很了不起，真的很了不起。”石先生说。

我回问道：“你是在夸奖我，还是在讽刺我?”

“都有。”石先生的嘴角抹过一丝诡异的微笑，“反正你也活不久了。”

什么鬼话?虽然我现在’没带枪，但我还是可以从后面勒死你，或把你的脖子扭断……咦，等等……怎么回事?

“你终于发现了。”。石先生说，“你难道没觉得车内的冷气有点儿强吗?”

我试着移动我的手，但完金使不上力，完全动不了。怎么回事?怎么回事?

“你放心，再过几分钟，你就完全没有感觉了。”石先生冷冷地说。而我已经大致清楚他摘了什么鬼——他在车子的空调里动了手脚，而他自己想必先服下了解药，而不会被空调中的毒气所影响。真有你的啊，石先生。

我动着已经有些麻痹感的嘴唇说：“你在空调里动了手脚，对吧?”

“你发现了？不愧是我最得力的助手。”对于石先生的这句夸奖，我有点儿哭笑不得。

“是啊，我发现了，不过你还没发现吗?”我笑了，“后面有一辆车已经跟了我们很久了……”

石先生的眼睛警觉地瞄向后视镜，但他一定不知道是哪辆车在跟踪我们，因为他刚才的注意力都集中在开车和我的身上，而无暇注意到有人跟踪。

还记得我在接完石先生的龟话后打了一个电话吗?那个电话的内容很简单，我打给了警察，并让他们派人到我的公寓去埋伏，一定会有所收获。还好警方没有把我的电话当成恶作剧。因为我在下楼时，一眼就看到了两个明显是便衣警察的人坐在对面的便利商店，而我在上车前，偷偷跟他们挥了挥手。

还好，那两个便衣警察不是笨蛋，他们跟着我们，一直到现在。

我知道他们终会拦下石先生的车，到时车上会有我的尸体跟百口莫辩的石先生，这次该换我摆他一道了。

石先生正慌乱地寻找是哪一辆车在跟踪我们，而这时，收音机中的一条新闻传入我的耳中—一

“接下来是有关今早在凯达格兰大道上‘沉睡天使’的最新消息——该名女子经过医院检查后，证实体内有某种毒药残留，经过医疗团队抢救，女子已经苏醒并脱离生命危险。但医生表示，女子身上仍有毒药的后遗症，即严重的失忆症。女子已经不记得自己的名字跟身份，但女子跟警方袭示，她只记得一个名字叫‘黑浩’的男子。警方表示，请该男子尽快……”

我没有将这条新闻听完，因为我的耳朵已听不到任何声音。我只能笑着，缓缓闭上眼睛。

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