我站在死神的对面

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“这个车和车里的人，都到劫数了吗？”很久没开口的我，被迫跟死神讲话。

“没错，所以你是打算救他们吧？”死神说。

我没说话，看到司机头顶的电子指示牌上写今天是2015年8月30日，我笑了：“看来一切都是注定好的吧。就像18年前我上小学那天，公交车上显示的时间就是今天的时间，是不是意味着今天我要跟车里的人一起死掉？”

“如果你不想，你可以马上下车。五分钟后，公交车会爆炸！”死神说。

我笑了，咯咯的笑声吸引了车上所有人的目光。他们都听见了我说的话，只是听见我说的话而没听见死神的话。

有人小声嘀咕：“是个精神病吧！”

我没理会身边的窃窃私语，继续跟死神说话：“我可不可以这样理解，在我六岁第一天上小学的时候，我的寿命就应该结束了，不巧的是我由于某种原因看到了你，所以你杀不了我，不仅这样，我还有可能威胁你至高无上的地位，你便起了报复之心。”

死神摇摇头，“不对，即便是死神也没有随意杀人的权利，只是因为这些人的寿命到了罢了。能看见我的人，都是内心纯净无欲无求的，这样的人又怎么能威胁我的位置呢？况且，人终究是人，没有哪个人是不能被死神带走的。”

“那是为什么？你之前不是这样跟我说的。”我有些抓狂。

我身边的人纷纷用异样的眼光看着我，他们真的把我当做精神病了，甚至有一些人骂骂唧唧地下了车。更多的人要求司机把我撵下车，司机也朝我这边喊：“快下去，要不我报警了啊。”

“告诉我你为什么要撒谎？”我追问，我已经顾不得身边人的反应了。

“因为我是不死的幽灵，不死这个词对人类来说非常有诱惑力，但是对我来讲，简直太没意思了。我活了多久我都不记得了，我未来还要活多久也是一个未知数。我不能跟人交流，我不能有朋友，谁听到我的名字都浑身起鸡皮疙瘩，我只能无休止地工作，要不就是在准备下一个工作，这是多么无聊枯燥的生活啊。可是后来我遇到你了，本来我有机会带走你的，但是我觉得你很有意思，就想戏弄你一下而已，仅此而已，如果你想陪我继续玩下去，你就马上下车吧。我保证只要我不想，你就不会有消失的那天。”死神解释说。

我无语了。

说来说去，我竟然是死神手里的一个玩具罢了。被死神选中当做给他解闷的玩具，不知道是幸运还是不幸。

“那应岚他……？”

“哪个应岚？哦，你的朋友吧，他只是我玩腻的一个人类罢了，像他这样能看见我又假装自己是普通人的人类，我手上还有很多，自以为聪明。难道假装看不见我就代表我不存在吗？懦夫！”死神轻描淡写地说，他对应岚的评价，刺痛了我的心。

这时候，更多的乘客叫嚣着让我下车，他们把我围起来，威胁说如果我不下车就狠狠地揍我一顿。

我看着对面的死神一眼，然后迅速抱住其中一个座位趴在地上装傻大声喊：“别过来啊，过来咬你们，你们要是不想被咬，就快点儿下车。我告诉你们，谁要是敢打我，我就咬死谁。”

“这人不会有狂犬病吧？”有人提出疑问，大伙儿一听觉得有理，就都躲得远远的。

“都给我下车，都给我滚下车。”我扯着嗓门吼，还真有听话的人麻利地跑下车，边下车边叨咕，今天真倒霉，遇到个神经病。

司机觉得事态有点儿不好收拾了，又把语气变软了：“你家在哪儿啊？快别闹了回家吧，这车上的人都有急事呢。”

我白他一眼没答理他。

死神在我面前蹲下，问：“为什么要救他们？他们的劫数到了跟你也没关系。”

我也说不出为什么要救一群不相识的人，也许我不想看到一个个鲜活的生命就这样消失吧，或者在若干年前，我就对那对母子内疚吧，若不是我执意要下车，他俩估计也很难上车，若他们不上车，是不是就不会出事？

有许多事我可以选择忘记，但是我怎么也忘不掉那对母子的脸。

可是，如果当时不下车，我的父母就会出事。

我一直都很纠结着，在别人的生命和自己的生命中纠结，这是一个如此让人难以抉择的事情。是选择看别人死，还是选择结束自己？

死神抽动了一下僵硬的脸后，飘走了。

车上已经空无一人，大伙都下车了，司机说打电话报警，等把这疯子弄走了咱再开车。随即司机掏出手机。

“嘭——”，巨大的爆炸声响彻天空……

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