哭泣的糖纸

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糖纸展之后，我的心情一直很舒畅，那积压在心头多年的噩梦终于变成了天边的浮云，遥远而美丽。但我依旧禁止文文收集那种毫无价值的卡片。而是引导她集邮。

不仅如此，我还时常告诫她不要再和小企玩耍，生活在单亲家庭已经对文文的成长很不利了，我不希望她感染了小企的阴郁。虽然我和季小果曾是那么要好的朋友，但毕竟时过境迁，人总是要变的。况且，季小果的毒到底是谁下的，还是个未知。

文文那段时间倒也很乖。既不嚷嚷着买方便面，亦不埋怨我对她零用钱的限制。每当我去接她时，总能看到小企一个人孤零零地玩滑梯，他不厌其烦地爬上去又滑下来，带着某种莫名其妙的恨意。我记得以前季小果是禁止他这么滑的，因为那样衣服脏得很快破得也很快。现在，他可以尽情地滑了。

文文望着小企的身影。嘟囔着：“小企好可怜，他还总说我不要他了……”

“文文，你应该多认识些别的小朋友。”

“妈妈，我不久也可以那样滑滑梯了。”

“什么？”

文文吐吐舌头：“没什么啦！”

日子像白开水一样流过，直到那天，我接到了唐芷的电话，她说那天是小企的生日，约我和小文一起到她家去。给这没妈的孩子好好开个party。

这件事情无法拒绝。即便我再决绝。毕竟我和小果也是这么多年的姐妹。况且，关于唐芷的误会澄清之后，我也一直想找个机会和她坐坐，也好减轻下心中的内疚。

唐芷的家里全是糖纸，墙壁、吊顶。几乎所有的家饰都包裹着一层糖纸，这令她的家就像童话中森林里巫婆的糖果屋，显得那么不真实。

唐芷精心烹制的菜肴亦全部和糖有关，糖醋里脊、糖醋鱼、糖拌西果、糖炒花生……这一切的一切都让我感到十分不自在。

一进家门，文文就叫着小企的名字，轻车熟路地跑上阁楼。似乎她早已熟悉了这里，这令我愈加不安。

唐芷客气地邀请我坐下来，倒了两杯红酒：“来，为我们二十年后的重聚。”

“干杯，”我如坐针毡地举起杯子。

她放下杯子，环顾着自己的房子，自豪地说：“这些都是我这么多年收集来的，每一张糖纸里的糖果，我都亲自品尝过。”

“真了不起…”我心不在焉。

“我这么做，是为了当年我们的约定，你还记得吗？”

“什么约定？”我心头一颤，一种不好的预感涌进心头。

“就是像那时的电视里演的那样，杀死我们的父母，谋取遗产，然后收集起全世界所有好看的糖纸，建一座由糖纸造成的房子，我们三个人幸福地生活在一起在这快乐的糖纸世界里，只有我们三个人，就像童话里的三只小猪，组成彼此帮助关怀的一家人。”

“哦……”我又喝了一口酒，掩饰着心中的不安，“小时候的我们真是有趣，只是想不到你真的把屋子整成了这个样子。”

“嗯，我一直是认真的，从我们做好那个约定的那一刻起。”她的眼睛里充满了憧憬，“你知道吗，那个时候我母亲经常打我，只有和你们在一起的时候，我才觉得快乐，我一直就梦想可以永远和你们生活在一起，可是……你们总是要回家的……”

我猛然忆起，谋杀父母的想法，正是唐芷提出的，整个计划、包括怎么购买老鼠药，都是她的提议。

唐芷快乐地笑着：“所以我想，要是我们的父母都死了，不但没有人阻止我们收集糖纸，更没有人可以将我们分开了，我们可以整天整天地腻在一起，多幸福啊！”

“唐芷……你……”我只觉得头晕目眩。

“嘘——”唐芷肥胖的脸凑过来，在我的耳边低声说，“可是，你们变了，你们没有履行诺言，我毒死了唯一的母亲而你们没有，你们不要我了……这么多年，我一直努力地讨好你们，希望可以重新回到过去……可是……可是……”她低低地哭起来。

“对不起唐芷……可是，你不是说你母亲是得绝症死的吗？”

“我要不那么说，你今天还肯来吗？”

“你什么意思？”

“我们三个可以永远在一起了。”唐芷破涕而笑。

“我们？”

“我们。”

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在我失去知觉之前，隐约看到客厅的墙壁上有两个凹进去的暗格，其中一格里放着季小果的骨灰盒，那另外一格，想必是为我准备的。

“你……你会被抓到的……会有人发现的……”

唐芷开心地笑着，冲着阁楼喊道：“文文，你妈妈呢？”

文文的声音从阁楼上传来：“跟着一个叔叔跑了，不要我了。”我还隐约听到。她对小企说：“小企哥哥，我们去滑滑梯吧，我早就想像你那样痛快地滑上一天了！”

我最后的记忆，是看到唐芷甜蜜地拥住我，用无比幸福的声音说：“我们再也不会分开了……你们再也不会变了……再也不会了……”

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每个孩子都是被父母紧紧包裹住的糖果，它们在糖纸里挣扎着，渴望着，却听不到糖纸的哭泣。

Introduce:1 candy paper is lapping closely candied, because it fears others can harm candy,be, also fear candied meeting harms others. 2 in those days, tang Zhi, Ji Xiaoguo still has me is best sister, we from read nursery school to arrive on elementary school all the time always together. Go repeatedly the toilet also is accompany and go. We ever still had wanted to want peach garden 3 knots justice, regrettablly around do not have peach garden, the business of knot justice also is forced give u. All we the girl of that time the folly that has done, we had been done, collect candy paper and ice-cream rod for instance. Ice-cream rod never mind is good say, close to close so a few kinds. But candy paper is different. Multifarious each has his strong point. Best in those days candy paper is a kind aureate with black stripe alternate with. Knead rise noisy. Say according to Tang Zhi, that is the candy paper of a kind of butter and candy of chocolate mixture olfactory. Candy paper is our only money. Finish every time when the homework does not have a thing, we can take the candy paper that collects severally 3 times each supplies what the other needs. If see one magnify home unseen candy paper, we are met ground of cudgel one's brains for of leave no stone unturned gets it. Tang Zhi ever arrived to get paper of a piece of candy, and stole the pocket money in her mom trouser pocket. Although she suffers going-over accordingly, but be in when her " the meeting that bask in treasure " on bright when giving paper of Na Mei candy, in the look that admires in companion Jing, a happiness that never has had and warmth swing on her face. That is her happiest hour almost, she likes to be envied, every girl likes. Do not know later why, it is that winter after Tang Zhi's mother dies in the main, old people begins to prohibit we collect candy paper, we all baby are thrown into rubbish dump. To this I have a kind of illusion all the time, feel the snow below that winter is color, dazzling, candy paper is general. Fortunately after that before long, we also arose to be tired of to the sort of babyish hobby, turn and go collecting star to stick a picture. Dan Tangzhi is right candy paper constant, because she does not have the tie of adult,the likelihood is the mother that —— dies is her only family members. When learning in, tang Zhi resembles a rubber ball same by by turns fosterage is in all sorts of kin homes, pocket money nature is so little also that pocket money nature have pity on, but she remains the same live frugaly ground collects candy paper, one have new candy to come out. She always can eat the first times, and be shown off proudly before us. Can borrow. The look of the envy of those childhood, turned adolescence into little male girls already mock slashingly. But she as before impenitent do not understand with when all is entered, this kind of clinging hobby makes her make the companion's mockery not only, still make her development becomes true " candy ball " —— Tang Zhi becomes