穿过骨头抚摸你

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从小，我就是个特别聪明的孩子，成绩一直很好。但同学们都不喜欢跟我交往，他们更喜欢跟普通孩子一起玩。印象中，整个童年我只和爸爸、妈妈一起做过游戏。

读中学后，我开始学习各种艺术专业，和同学们一起上兴趣班，美术、音乐、体育。凡是能报名的我都参加，认识了很多新朋友。大家都崇拜我，我喜欢被崇拜的感觉。

因为成绩优秀，我被美国一家医学院看好，成了保送生。进校不久，我心理测验的报告结果出来了。他们说我有人格障碍。不适合学医，就把我劝退了。

为了安抚我的情绪，妈妈和爸爸带我到处旅行，不料却发生了意外。那次车祸中，妈妈和爸爸把我推出了车门，他们却双双离世。也是在那年，我被检查出患了肝癌。我不甘心就这样死去，我的命是妈妈和爸爸用生命换来的。

于是我一边努力读书，希望能找到救治自己的办法，一边尽量多的结交朋友，努力让自己快乐、充分享受人生。那段时间，我和方雨、赵伦、孙浩他们组了乐队。再后来，乐队受欢迎的程度出人意料，我们就这样红了。

可癌症却发展到了晚期。我不甘心就这样死去，我不想失去那些关心我崇拜我的歌迷和我拥有的一切。于是，我杀了她们。她们都很乖，喝我递过去的饮料。按照我的要求写了那些崇拜我的信。载给了她们足量麻醉剂和迷幻药，让她们死的时候没有痛苦。

我一直认为。方雨他们都是我的好兄弟。可是我错了。

那个赵伦曾经追求了两年的女孩，和他接触只不过是想接近我。于是他怀恨在心，到处说我的坏话。我割了他的舌头，希望他在另一个世界等我的时候能安静点。

孙浩吸毒，为了吸毒他可以连性命都舍弃。我取出他的肺。让他死得干净些。他应该谢谢我，至少在另一个世界不会再被毒品诱惑。

方雨，我一直以为几个朋友里。最默契的就是他。可是，那天晚上我帮他去办公室里偷试卷时。他却在外面偷偷给女朋友打电话，要她打给校卫来抓我。还亲口承认说他妒嫉我的一切。我没打算让他那天死，所以身上没带麻醉药，他死的时候受了点苦。

我在美国看过一本书，是印度佛教密宗的传说。里面说，把人的肋骨做成项链。加以咒语就能将骨头主的灵魂封印，灵魂将永随项链制造者甚至他的灵魂。我要我的崇拜者、搭档们，全部陪着我，永远陪着我，我太害怕小时候那种孤独的感觉了。项链的最后部分本打算留给你的，你是最关心我的人，所以，原谅我……

那些黑色的信也是我做的，“全世界最爱你的幽灵粉丝”就是我自己。我这样自私的人是不值得你喜欢的。忘了我吧，回到属于你的世界。森杰的声音渐远，栗子粉蛋禚依然摆在桌子上，他一口部没有尝。

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也许一个人在对科学绝望的时候，是会寄希望于没有科学根据的传说，凌云想。

离开监狱，时间已经不早了，绮丽的晚霞装饰在天边，宛如一幅壮阔的画卷，轻柔的晚风吹拂在凌云的脸上。道路有些颠簸，凌志放慢了车速，铁灰色的监狱建筑群还是渐行渐远。车里还在播放着那首《穿过骨头抚摸你》，依然是以前的旋律，不过如今却不能再打动凌云了，也许，这是最后一次听这首歌了。凌云手上的伤口有些隐隐的痒，大概是在愈合。

Introduce:In the assembly room of public security bureau of castle A city, holding urgent meeting. The hero of the photograph is the schoolgirl of a suicide, cause of death is to cut wrist exsanguine and overmuch. Admirable is, a rib was lost on her body, cut is oversewed with catgut. There is weird smile on the girl's face, what not be fear of death it seems that is dread, the look had seen smile flush it seems that the scenery of heaven. In another piece of photograph, it is a schoolgirl to rock-and-roll of a campus team advocate confess of sung the real situation, pass the handwriting that appraisal is him dead. But strange is, this believes complete unlike posthumous papers. Recently two months, same female song confuses suicidal incident had been the 4th happened. Dead spot is same, the letter of same content. Euqally weird laugh, be taken away like a rib. (1) on the Oriental square of burning sun sorching, schoolgirls scream in ground of exert to one's utmost, the happy hand that goes up with the stage people drip with sweat together. Today, it is sound factory band hold water two years do not insert electric concert, this day of opportunity is rare. Sound factory band, it is countrywide best-selling an undergraduate rock-and-roll team, advocate sing Senjienian discipline is the smallest, the cheek that the black cowboy outfit with a suit unique design lets he is cadaverous is more marked, a bingle also appears move move is very. The person that is familiar with him knows, he is the talent student of the college of medicine, gift is great 2 already big 3 even the part is large 4 credit are repaired. Dan Senjie is not book bug, his guitar is played first-rately, sound also has kind of special qualitative feeling, the temperament with Jun Lang's appearance and decadent appreciably, make he becomes fashionable the God character of whole college town. Outside square, reach the clouds stands below a large tree, awaiting elder brother Ling Zhi anxiously. The drummer square rain of Lingzhi and sound factory is high school classmate, reach the clouds asks an elder brother to help take her to see Sen Jie. With a lot of schoolgirls, she also is iron lever vermicelli made from bean starch of Sen Jie. Eventually, ling Zhigao's tall stature appears in the line of sight of reach the clouds, the suicidal case Ling Zhilai for vermicelli made from bean starch of investigation Sen Jie is late. At the moment, the concert had ended in thunderous applause and the hurrah of hundreds person. "Go, take you to see your image, I had been contacted with Fang Yu yesterday. " Lingzhi is pulling backstage of little sister double. Tiring-room has with will do bathhouse and make up an used minibus, the driver is covering abdomen comes over from toilet direction, the apologize of one face. Inside railroad car one ins disorder, it seems has mad vermicelli made from bean starch to had come in, took away happy hand secretly people private article. "You will get just in time, do not know such calculating not to calculate have things stolen? " drummer square rain finds both funny and annoying the ground looks at Ling Zhi, "I looked to throw some of what thing. " say, he begins the thing since check the amount to come. " fill in