骨女之鬓

九

在风景如画的北户库郡，我打听到了多年前曾发生的、骇人听闻的绑架凌虐案件。

河合家青春貌美的独女，居然爱上了一个不务正业的浪人，不想却被他们绑架勒索，虽然几经波折后终于被救出，但她已奄奄一息，而且神经失常被送去疗养院调养，然后就从这里消失了。

我专程去拜访了疗养院的院长，也是著名的创伤心理学专家，吾孙纪子女士。她与我之前的部分研究有接轨点，对我的到来感到非常意外和惊喜。

我将话题渐渐引入到那个案件中去，纪子的语气开始有些沉重： “那个女孩本是多么单纯善良的人啊！却被一个邪恶男人不羁的气质吸引，深深地爱上了他，毁了自己的一生。”

纪子轻轻地闭上双眼，像是在回忆她的故事， “那几个男人将她装在冰柜里骗过城外的稽查，把她带去青尺山一个阴冷潮湿的洞穴，平捆在一个大石头上，一边向她父母索要高昂的赎金一边对她进行残酷的施虐，他们几个人不分昼夜地揉搓她，噬咬她，还把他们排泄出的黄色尿液注入她的身体。最令她痛心的，应该是本以为深爱她的男人，居然是为了暴虐富家女的身体来寻找更多的快感，才与她交往的。

“她被救出后患上了严重的创伤综合症，任何触碰她的人都会引起她剧烈的反抗，我们不断用各种药物和治疗去平复，使她发作的频率慢慢降低。”

“那是不是她终身都会生活在那样的心理创伤下？”

吾孙纪子沉重地点点头，接着说： “最糟糕的还不仅如此。一开始以为尽量切断诱发源，采用抑制疗法就可以让她有所好转。看着她逐渐安静下来，我们以为是治疗奏效了。直到某天晚上，我路过她的房间时，看到她把一个结满冰霜的医用人体模型捆绑在台面上，拼命地揉搓噬咬之后，将一个针头管插入模型的手臂，我意识到她的创伤没有向外排解，而是向内转移了，恶化成为了反向施虐综合症。”

“就是那种采用相同的方式去对待别人，以此来发泄内心的恐惧和仇恨？”我想起来什么。

“对，当神经在较长的时间内濒临崩溃和极致摧残，它就会以另一种方式储存在大脑中，让受害人感到焦躁和痛苦。她通过复制那种行为模式来救助自己，这种行为绝不是在自主清醒意识下产生的，是一种精神病深度发作的表现。在犯罪心理学的历史上，这样的案例很多，以前被施虐的人，后来转化成了以同样方式虐待别人的人：比如一个从小被祖父母关在黑暗地下室并虐待的男孩，长大后就采用黑暗地下室囚禁奴隶的方式，寻求自己神经和生理的满足。这是世界心理学上难以攻克的问题。”

“那这种发作会有固定的周期吗？”我进一步询问。(:http:///转载请保留!)

“不一定，有的人会有，比如那个受虐时间恰巧有某些特定的意义，也有些人是无时间规律的，只要具备较明显的诱发因素就有可能让她发作。”

“那是您建议她离开这里，去其他地方开始新生活吧？用她的专业技能取得一定的成就，也是最好的抚伤方法之一吧！”我看着眼前这位博学的女士，感到由衷地钦佩。

“是的，远离这里就可以远离很多诱发因素以及社会压力。在这样一个处处能勾起她回忆的地方，确实不利于康复。当年，在她被凌虐的地方生长着一种气味独特浓郁的花朵，成为了她创伤记忆的重要部分。有次我们的一个同事郊游回来，头发上略有那种味道，就让她歇斯底里了一整天，好不容易才控制住。人在极端情况下的力气真是惊人啊。经过了两年多的治疗，裕子的病情渐渐地控制得较稳定，施以连续的药物辅助，应该是可以完成独立的社会生活的。不过她的诱发源也还有其他的，比如男人对她敏感部位的触碰等，看来可怜的裕子是永远不可能有正常的女性生活了，只是希望她能平安地度过自己的一生就好。”

十

那几天正时至河合裕子的生日，我故意在监察会的前一天，才将报告拿去社长的办公室，厚厚的匣子遮住了里面纸张的味道，每一页我都用骨女之鬓的花液浸泡良久。

当然，为了加重这种味道的突然性，我在那套备用男士正装和衬衣的内里都涂满浓郁的花液。

正是要下班的时间，我换上的那杯咖啡中放入了足量的类春药的试剂，发作的时间和程度被我精准控制，因为我是一个化学家，这是我的专长。咖啡的浓香掩盖了药剂的味道，价值昂贵，他一定一滴都没有浪费。

社长看见我实验室的灯光熄灭后，果然拿着我的报告来到裕子的实验室，想故技重施讨好她。

裕子近期服用的镇定药早巳被小林洋二偷换成维生素，而临下班的那剂药则被小林换成了具有短暂肢体麻痹性的药物。

社长言语不多后开始兽性发作，强大的剂量能让他失去理智极度亢奋，一小段时间后便力竭昏睡过去，而裕子因为肢体麻痹而反抗不得。

本来近期她的精神就很不稳定，浓烈的骨女之鬓香气和男人粗暴的肢体压迫，让她神经中深藏的痛苦经历被清晰地唤起，药力过后她开始强烈地怒吼并如一头野兽般复制施虐。

当然，她触手可得的冷冻冰柜和试剂、捆绑工具也是让小林洋二提前就放在了她的周围，失去意识的人不会思考这么多，为了以防万一，我早已在门外反锁了他们的实验室。

十一

我在第一次检查样本时就发现，有具尸体样本的四肢有生前捆绑的痕迹，核实数据库时，看见了它对应的一组数据信息呈现奇怪的特征，我立刻想起，只有活体注射防腐剂时，采样的数据才会出现这样的特点，不知道是哪位过于急切的追求者，在她生日时巧合地触动她的神经缺陷，成为了第一个受害者。

而我之所以一眼就看出了那是活体注射防腐剂的特征，是因为在某个屈辱的黑夜醒来后，我赤裸着身体，拿来了经常使用的麻醉剂和防腐剂，对着欺骗凌虐我的那个人狠狠地扎下去。

骨女：日本传说中的十二位女妖之一，曾是爱的随从，怀着一颗少女的天真质朴之心，却被心爱的男人欺骗，卖入妓院，受尽侮辱、欺负和蹂躏，含恨而死后化为厉鬼向人索命，只剩下一堆骨头，用人皮伪装自己，诱惑品行不良的男人，吸干他们的血髓。

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